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July 31, 2007

this is it...

thank you. first and foremost, a big thank you to angela for hosting it for two years, and letting me keep my 11mb nook in her 2gig cranny. to japan/clair/everyoneinjapan for making it all possible. and to all of you for reading my ramblings. clearly i was doing something right if i could hold your attentions to either subscribe to my rss feed or simply bookmark this page. it's always brought me great joy to discover that someone new whom i didn't expect was reading this blog and it only motivated me moreso to try and keep it up to date as often as possible. though at times i know it was slow, i'm glad to say though that i've kept it drama free and only about the fun instances that i've had in japan that i will always remember and keep close to me always.

but this is the last entry for my blog.

becuase by this time tomorrow, or even more likely, by the time you read this i'll actually be home.

not my apartment in fuji japan home, i mean home home.

in my own home, in my own bed, with family, with friends, with oscar, with trash cans.

i've more or less spent the last few weeks saying my goodbyes to everyone whom i wanted to say goodbye to, and yet even so it feels like i'm forgetting some people. even so, it never really is `goodbye` is it. it's more of a `see you later` kind of feeling to it.

it's hard to actually imagine how many lives you can be a part of and how many of theirs can be a part of yours, and that it never really boils down to it until you see what happens when you have to part ways for a potentially infinite amount of time.

but to everyone i've met, and to every place i've been, and to every thing i've done while here in japan, it's almost surreal that this day has finally come; my last day in japan.

at this time two years ago, i arrived in japan starry eyed and filled with a sense of motivation i have not felt in a long while. a sense of excitement that begged me to run around to look behind every corner to see if there was something new to discover. though the starryness has faded from my eyes quite some time ago, i still find myself with that sense of curiosity and adventure. almost a kind of wanderlust that has been instilled into my very being just by being here.

but more importantly, to me anyways.

as eager as i was to start anew and see what life here had in store for me, there was a slight twang of doubt, a small nagging quesetion of whether or not i could do it, if i could survive. if the very things that i had hoped to accomplish before i came to japan and even then the things i hoped to have accomplished while in japan always worried me in the sense of that i might find myself on this day with a sense of, well, regretting japan.

and as ominous, for lack of a better word really, as that may seem, i find myself here at work on my very last full day with my bags overstuffed and possibly breaking and no real clue how i'm going to get everything home, i can sit here with one of the largest grins on my face knowing that,

i did it.

p.s. i won every one of those bets.

p.p.s. i'm just sad no one actually put any money on them :[.

p.p.p.s. with a heavy heart, and a big hug.

-jeff

Posted by Jeff at July 31, 2007 12:48 PM

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